Lidna, from 2nd Cup of Coffee is hosting her Random Dozen one final time, but it is the Random Take Away 10. Actually it looks like I'm committing to about 5 answers, so maybe it is the Random One Half Minus One, I'm not sure.1. What scares you the most
A) Physically- I've forgotten where I parked my car so many times now and done other weirder things like putting cheese in the saran wrap drawer and trying to unlock my house door with my car door opener remote- so often, that lately I've been picturing myself old and without the ability to remember anything- like where I live or where I put my teeth. And time just seems to be sailing on by, which doesn't help at all. And I know this is a real life scenario for many. But I just don't want to end up wearing diapers and worrying who might be the lucky changer and lonely with whiskers and possibly without my super soft night night blanket and my new, clean feather pillow. And sad.
B) Emotionally-See answer to letter A.
Why does it scare you, and how do you cope?
Well, the truth is, each occasional vision of me in this potential state usually brings a sudden shudder or quick prick of fear right through my heart, but then I am overwhelmed by a greater calm. This calm comes from the words of Jesus, who offers me hope and peace in all of life's circumstances. He says look at the lilies, they don't worry, so why should you? He says, come to me...I will give you rest (rest from your scary thoughts and visions). He says, do not fear, for I have overcome the world. He says trust me. He says, I've got you covered. He says, I will be with you to the end of the age. He says, I will go before you and prepare a place for you. He says I will have a new body. He says his love for me is everlasting.
Basically, I am trying to learn what it means to be brought to the end of myself, even now, so that I can fill myself fully with, and trust completely in- Christ alone. It's a one and a half steps forward, one and three tenths steps back process for me, so far. But I'm going to press on toward the goal.
2. What comes to mind when you read the phrase, "Nothing gold can stay?"
I've never actually heard this phrase, but right now I am picturing myself walking around my house collecting all things shiny and yellowish to take to Goodwill.
4 comments:
It's interesting to see that I can relate to everyone's fears! I've already been forgetting a lot, so the fear of getting senile has been residing with me. I loved how you used God's promises to cope!
It helps to know I'm not the only one doing this sort of thing. I used to think it was because I had so many thoughts crowding my brain but these days I think its that there are too few.
Enjoyed your answers. And I am with you on the forgetting things. Senile Dementia is one of my fears. A scary thought.
until next time... nel
The forgetting things and concern about dementia/Alzheimer's seems to be a common thread. I try to slough it off by saying my hard drive is full and needs defragmenting. Don't I wish it was that instead of that "getting older" thing.
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